Before I found KTC, I had resigned myself to the idea that I was too weak to quit. I had given up hope that I would ever really quit for good. Like most of you, I had several, probably dozens, of failed quit attempts. Admittedly, the last few were particularly half-assed. If I’m being honest, most of my “quit” attempts were intended to get my wife and kids to stop hounding me about quitting. I know…what an asshole, right? I know all of us have plenty of stories about the fucked up things we’ve done while in the grips of this addiction. I would sit and look my children in the eye and listen to them say, “Dad, please stop chewing. I don’t want your face to fall off”. You know what I would do next? You guessed it. Go grab my can of Copenhagen, and pack my face full of that shit. What kind of piece of shit asshole could do something like that? That’s a question that I’m sure my wife asked on more than one occasion.
Anyway, I wasn’t really looking for ways to quit chewing when I found KTC. I was researching ways to lower blood pressure without medication. Obviously, one of the ways is to quit using tobacco products. This eventually led me to Killthecan.org, and I thank God it did. When I started reading about how things work here, I realized that this is exactly what I needed. It all made perfect sense. I was always discouraged about the idea of quitting forever, as I’m sure many of you were. This idea of just quitting for today…it was so simple, yet it was genius. What kind of pussy can’t quit for one day? I can quit for one day. So I did. I quit for one day, and I’ve done that for 104 days in a row. Forever can wait. All I know is that, thanks to KTC, I am quit for today.
I want to thank all of the veteran quitters who continue to give their support to the new guys. I want you to know that you have my support as well and people are paying attention to your quits just like you pay attention to ours. I also want thank the June Saloon for being a bad ass group of serious quitters. A special thank you to Sixer, Bronc, and MCO for helping me through the rough spots. I would never have imagined how someone I have never met in person could become such an important part of my life. Thanks to all of you. See ya at roll tomorrow.
NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan.org forum member slinger