For most of the KillTheCan community 100 days marks your Hall of Fame. For me, I’ve made 100 days on my own in the past but not much further than that. I would always pick another crutch. Cigarettes, cigars. Just a pinch here, a can there. When the Samurai of September 15 boarded our train I was proud of all my brothers and sisters but in the back of my mind I still knew I wasn’t out of the woods. My battle wasn’t over. So I didn’t feel right posting a HOF speech then.
I came to KTC on June 12th, 2015. I came skeptical. No way I could do this cold turkey. I had just spent 30 bucks on nicotine gum. I started to think KTC wasn’t for me, no way I could do this. I posted an intro, looked around a little and commented on my intro that I didn’t think I was ready for a day 1. Then another quitter commented. In not as many words Worktowin called me the bitch I am and made me see that I had nothing to lose by throwing that nicbitch’s gum into the trashcan. Posted my roll and I was off!
God it was awful. I thought I was going to die. I didn’t think I could make it past the first few days. Then fellow quitters started posting their phone numbers in my inbox. As a cop, I was skeptical and reluctant of sharing that information. But when that bitch started calling me back, those numbers were my lifeline. I became 150% invested in KTC and continue to be this today. KTC saved my life, my marriage. I thank the founders and admin who keep it going.
Today marks 500 days. 500 days compared to 8,765 approximate days of dipping. I would be remiss in not thanking some people. By thanking I really mean I would not be the quitter I am without you. I would not be 500 days 100% posting roll. I have to thank every single one of the Samurai of Sept 15. EVERY one of you are part of my family. Even the ones we lost, caved, left KTC or pissed me off one way or another. You’ve saved me more than once. Norm was the first to reach out to me. Then Mac, who I found out lived close and had known my wife for a long time. Thanks for relating to her what I couldn’t about the struggle. BadAsh, DEA, my quit twin Rig (where you at dude), EOD, ODNT, Hogan, Dash, Mtn and so many others. Dusty, I can’t tell you how proud I am to be your friend. Who knew Almost a year and a half you’d be an admin, one of the very people that make people’s quits happen. I love you guys. Worktowin, PAB, Cav, Waste, and all or you oldheads I got snappy with in the beginning, that were always on our roll to make sure we were quitting hard. That guided us through our stressful, hateful moments. Kept us pointed in the quit direction and molded us into a great group of quitters.
For the one that is reading this, that is deciding if KTC was for them. That’s who this HOF speech is for. If I can do this, and all my family here can do this, you can. If you doubt yourself, send me a message. I am here for you. I am here for every single member of this community. If anyone feels they can’t make it, I am here for you. We are all here for you.
No day but today. Semper Fi.