I have given this a lot of thought! First of all I am incredibly thankful to be where I am today, 110 days free of the Nic-Bitch. After 22 years of this shit, something that started so innocently as taking a pinch took me about 8,030 days to realize that something was wrong. That’s right take it in 8,030 days of my life that this shit had control of me, every moment from the second I woke up in the morning, until the moment I went to sleep. If you are reading this, it has probably had it’s grip on you at some point, if not now. I had checked this sight out in the past, whenever I was feeling shitty, and wanting to make a change, but that’s all it was the Bitch had complete control of me. I am very grateful to the “Sultans of 2014” the dedication and the accountability is what did it for me. You see, I really thought that this shit was going to have me until the day I died, and even then I thought I would be begging for a dip while I was alone and dying in the hospital. I had succumbed to the fact that this was my life, and everyone around me would just have to deal with it! My wife , my 2 boys, my parents and all my friends and family. What was the final straw you ask? My 6 year old son, telling me daily (prompted by my incredibly strong wife, for putting up with this shit from the day we met) “DADDY, IF YOU KEEP PUTTING THAT BLACK SHIT IN YOUR MOUTH YOU ARE GOING TO DIE” Yup, 6 years old! But he was relentless, and I hope to be around when he is older to Thank him for saving my life! I GUESS, IF YOU ARE READING THIS AND ARE STRUGGLING CAUSE YOU ARE EARLY ON IN THE QUIT OR IF YOU ARE HAVING A MOMENT OF WEAKNESS JUST REALIZE LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER WITHOUT THE NIC-BITCH IN IT! What I have realized is that 100 days if just a number, and if you think that when you hit 100 days free that all the cravings and feelings go away! You are completely wrong. 100 days is just a number like day Fucking “1”. It don’t mean shit, unless Tomorrow you are +1!
My advice is to print out the contract to GIVE UP! STICK THAT SHIT IN YOUR WALLET AND START RIGHT NOW, AND WHENEVER YOU FEEL WEAK JUST PULL IT OUT AND READ IT, THOSE ARE POWERFUL WORDS, I WILL NEVER GIVE UP! I AM DONE WITH IT.
I am not going to lie, the beginning sucks, but it is like finding a “POT OF GOLD AT THE END OF THE RAINBOW WHEN YOU REALIZE YOU GOT HER/IT BEAT! Thank you Kill The Can, for SAVING MY LIFE!
Special shout out to Lighty! Thank you for making a connection with me, from Day 1 Fuck that bear!
“To me there are three things everyone should do every day. Number one is laugh. Number two is think — spend some time in thought. Number three, you should have your emotions move you to tears. If you laugh, think and cry, that’s a heck of a day.”
SULTANS! I OWE YOU MY LIFE, THANK YOU, THE CHALLENGE WAS LAID DOWN FROM THE MOMENT I LOGGED IN THIS TIME, AND THAT IS WHAT I NEEDED!
NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan.org forum member Rverbou