My First 100 – Put Your Name On That Roll

jtbrown avatarThere isn’t really anything I can include in this HOF speech that hasn’t already been stated, much more eloquently mind you, by others on this site. But I think that is the point. There is so much knowledge floating around this place. Sure, I could have just read about all the bad effects dipping has on a person at a million other websites, but that is not what fuels a quit. I knew all this stuff, I read the information, and proceeded to continue dipping. None of that stuff had any kind of lasting impact on me.

I’ll never forget the day I made the decision. It seemed so nonchalant at the time. I just said, “I think this will be my last can”. I’m sure my wife was calling bullshit on it, but something felt different. Then I stumbled on to this site. I read around for a while, poked in and out of chat before ever registering. It seemed weird to me. How were these guys going to help me quit and stay quit? Giving it a shot was the best thing that could have happened, and the only reason why I have made it 100 days. And it will be the main reason why I make it 100 more.

Everyone on this site always stresses the importance of posting roll. It took me a few days, maybe even a week, before I fully realized what they meant by honoring roll. There is a change in mindset when you put your name on that roll. The thought that a whole group of guys are going through the exact same struggle as you, and you’re fighting it out together. You don’t want to let them down any more than they want to let you down. Caving is not an option, because you have to keep your promise.

For anyone reading this who is thinking about quitting, stop thinking and do it. I am 26 years old, and I started dipping/chewing tobacco at 8 (not a joke). For most of my life that I am capable of remembering, nicotine has been along for the ride. My brother is the same way. I am around it constantly. Everyone says “If I can quit, you can quit”. That is certainly true in my case as well. I always assumed I would die with a can in my back pocket. But I could not be any happier to know that that will not be the case. I could die at any time, but dammit, it won’t be because I paid to do it.

NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan.org forum member steffano626

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