So I noticed a lot of discussion today about the importance of posting roll, and doing so early and often. I don’t know how many of you feel about this, and I know there are many of you that are adamant about posting every single day. I just wanted to share my thoughts about this seeing as how this is my second go-round on KTC. I feel like what I have to say may be helpful for some newer members who are just starting this journey.
When it comes to posting roll…man, it really is everything. Being accountable is the absolute key to staying quit. This being my second quit, I feel I have pretty good perspective on this. During my first quit, I posted roll probably in the high 80% range. I thought this was pretty good. I made it to the HOF, and after that I rarely used KTC, and eventually stopped using it at all. I figured “Fuck, I made it to the HOF, why do I need to keep using the site?”
I’ll tell you why: because you get complacent. You let your guard down. The craves are so few and far in between that you think you can handle it on your own. Then life happens and something comes along that knocks you off your feet and you are a slave to the can again (speaking from personal experience on that one). There is no doubt in my mind that if I had religiously used KTC that I would have never caved.
This time around, I have a much better understanding about the importance of accountability. I have missed a day of roll, and that to me is unacceptable. Strive to post every day. Be 100%, be accountable to yourself and the group. Last time, I did the bare minimum: posted roll, didn’t participate, didn’t get contacts, just posted roll and went about my business. Now, I’ve tried participating a lot more, and what a fucking difference it makes. Get involved. PM people. Get contacts. When we are active, it contributes to group conversation, and it makes us want to stay quit together. Don’t let yourself fall off the band wagon.
These veterans might rag on us, and they might get on our ass about posting roll, posting early, fixing bumps, etc. I know this might piss some people off, but they are doing it because they have seen what happens when people get complacent. They are doing all they can to stop each and every one of us from letting our guard down, and they are trying to strengthen our group so that all of us can make the HOF.
One last thing before I end this rant. Guys, I really want to impress on each and every one of you how absolutely fucking embarrassing it is caving and then coming back here. I knew I was going to get shit coming back, but I never expected the feelings of shame I got for letting down my old quit group. They all expected me to stay quit with them, and I let them all down. Don’t let this be you. Don’t put yourself through the guilt and shame. Stay here so that you don’t ever have to come back for round 2. I am thankful, however. I would much rather take shit from vets on KTC than still be a slave to the can. I am sure that there are many people who have caved who have never come back. Don’t let that be you either. That is a much worse fate than any shit some vets might give you. Above all, remember the first few days of your quit. Remember how fucking awful it is fighting the fog, being an angry prick, lashing out at people you care about. Remember how fucking shitty that is. I clearly forgot it before I caved, and now I remember crystal clear. You can bet your ass I won’t forget it this time. We’ve all come this far, why throw it away only to have to do it again later? Finally, stay quit. Quit every. single. fucking. day. Don’t allow yourself to slip back to dip. It’s too easy. Quitting is fucking hard. We all know that, and it’s why we’re here, because we have the balls to stand up and do what is right, not what is easy, and we help each other through it, because the alternative is being six feet under.
Stay quit brothers and sisters, it is an honor quitting with you all.