2017 HOF Speeches

Quitting Chew is Awesome

KTC Logo PurpleHave you ever had the feeling where you have to strategically plan out your next few hours to ensure that you’ve got a chew in? You had to plan on getting away from people so you could chew. How many unsatisfying chews? I would have left that shit in for an hour if I didn’t have to be somewhere or do something. I feel like I could have spent 90% of my waking hours with a chew in if I could. I fuckin loved that shit. Toss in a chew at a tailgate, fishing, golfing, baseball, driving – anywhere. It was fun. I loved adding a quick, tasty buzz to what I did. 

Have you ever been an asshole after a meal? Specifically at a dinner party or some event that you wish you could’ve faked sick at. I needed that after meal dip. I couldn’t survive without it. I had toinexplicably run to the nearest convenience store to make sure I was set for the night. I would just disappear for 20 minutes. 
Now? None of that. But before now, I want to talk about my 100 days. 

On day 5, I wrote this

I owe this site everything. I can honestly say that if I didn’t find this site (if it didn’t exist), I would be chewing at least a tin a day. Think about that? For all the fake that we have done, we have never polished off 1+ tins of that shit. Every day I would chew at least a tin. Now, I don’t care if it’s on me or not – It’s not something I pat the pockets for…

Days 1-21 – On day 22, I felt like a made a breakthrough. Days 1-21 were a struggle. The foooooooooooooooooooogqweiorjwqogreuigbwieqngowenqewjndsla. That a how made feel me likeuhhhhhhh. It is no joke. There were times that I was driving, when I felt like I might crash. I remember on day 7 or 8 driving with a friend who didn’t like my chewing and me feeling good that I wasn’t chewing. But…, at the same time, I was going fucking crazy in a weird cloud of drug-induced anxiety and impatient anger. These days were tough. I still always thought about chew and always wanted to give in. But OFDAAT. Amazing right? I didn’t stand a chance without KTC. Now I know that stuff is in my past. I was active and really bought in. I read every page. I loved trying to recruit guys to join my group. I told all of my friends and family about the site. I was diligent in my WUPP. I PMed a lot of brothers. I needed accountability and you were here because you are the dudes. We were all going through it and we all knew it sucked. Loved that. 

Days 22-67 – This was during the time that I was starting to feel relief. I felt like I could just chew some trident every once in a while and have minimal cravings. It was the time when I felt like I was beginning to have some control over the cravings. It took the promise for the first 3 weeks, but now it felt like I could win the battles by myself. I was still active, but I was posting 2 times/day. I was climbing the mountain at a good pace and not looking down. The end is in sight. 

Days 68-99 – I start to change my habits. It was the time that I started to realize that chewing wasted a lot of time… I started to do more things. I started to feel better about myself because I didn’t have to think about the strategic chew I was going to take after we ate. I got a bunch of new jobs after moving. Moved with the gf in May. These are the jobs that I have: Accounting Manager – awesome golf course. Beer Hawker – I had to learn what this meant. I’m the guy that walks in the stands at baseball games and sell beer. A Redman at a baseball practice got me into it. A Skoal peach at a baseball tournament got me hooked. I always thought that it was cool because I didn’t feel queasy. Anyway – the point is that I’ve always liked baseball. #3 is as a stagehand at a concert venue. I’ve seen Paul Simon and JCM and gotten paid for it. Steve Miller Band w/ Peter Frampton and Modest Mouse are on deck. Great 8 hour/week job. While I have been quit, I have managed to secure free 1) rounds of golf 2) baseball games, and 3) sold out concerts. It’s only for the summer, but it’s pretty great. 

Day 100 – Busy. Definitely too busy to think about chew. I was very happy with my accomplishment but didn’t have enough time to be on KTC.

Days 101-110 – Found it tough to find time for KTC. This is dumb. I neglected the site because I didn’t want to write this. Too busy to find time. Missed roll twice, late on roll 8 times. Poor effort – sorry. 

Days 111-Current – I will always love this site. It has cured me of my addiction to chew. I will continue to use the site and support the bros, but I might miss a day here and there. I know that this site is the only reason I am quit. I want to be involved in helping others like me quit chew. I made time to write this and will have this archived for me to read in the future. All thanks to KTC. 

Special thanks to Young. He was a great leader of the group. He Pmed me “A long time ago I told myself that nothing should have that much power of a person, but just recently have I really taken it to heart. I’m not going back this time! Happy to be quit with you.” Truly a guy that I didn’t want to let down. Thank you for making a difference in my life.

And thank you to KTC and everyone in the club. I am quit for life. 

NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan.org forum member WolfPDX

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