And why it’s really one big Up
100 days ago, I had my last dip of Copenhagen. I dipped pouches, by the way, and fuck you if you think they’re for pussies. At least I didn’t walk around looking like a fool with little grains of tobacco plastered all over my teeth. But the truth is, using smokeless tobacco period, regardless of the brand, makes you look like a fool. Although I am only twenty years old and only dipped for three years, tobacco had already begun to take its toll on me — not physically, thank God, but financially, mentally, and emotionally. I lived in fear of cancer, fully expecting to be one of the people who developed it early. Part of me
held the view that death will get all of us eventually, so I might as well take the risk. But that was bullshit, twisted thinking. I have goals I laid out for myself in life, and none of them involve dip. Quitting dip was about standing up as a man and taking control of my life. There is a lot out there I can’t control – like the weather, other people, traffic, and my urges to kill strippers – but one thing I do have control of is whether or not I am going to act like a man. And to me, the course of action was obvious – acting like a man meant quitting.
This is a fantastic site. While my decision to quit came from within, I definitely could not have carried it out alone. I wanted to give up many times during those difficult first few days, but I always knew I was not alone. Every day I would sign roll call, and every day I would see that gigantic list of names and knew that I did not want to be the weak link. This site was proof that quitting was possible. Every single person who posted on the site has helped me stay quit. That being said, I owe my quit to a few individuals who went out of their way to help me. Ready and Buckfever, your PMs that day saved me. I was ready to throw in the towel and give it up, when I saw those encouraging messages. Thank-you. Steel and Crosshair, I have had many laughs during our in depth discussions of the fine art of receiving road head. Those conversations defnitely kept me grounded during times when I was a little shaky. Mule, Bart, Monty, Gherritz, GCC, and all the rest of the July group, thank you all. There are some great people on this site, people who quit long ago but continue to come back and pass their wisdom on to others. Loot, Chewie, and all the other admins and mods, y’all are great. You guys are putting yourselves out there and helping so
many people. To my alcohol group – Visa, Ed, Closer, Cook, all you guys – keep doing what you’re doing.Thanks for helping me to combat my other demons.
To wrap it up, if you want to quit dip, this is a great place to be. Follow the suggestions and advice and you WILL succeed. As for my title, the Ups and Downs of 100 days quit – fuck the downs. What seemed like impassable roadblocks at the time – cravings, irritability, depression, all that other bullshit, was really nothing. Nothing. In the end, the important thing is, I have 100 days quit, and though I’m only just starting this journey, it feels great to reach this “milestone” of 100 days quit.