I have always been a masochist. Wanting and needing bad things to happen to me so I could feel better. This is still inside me; but slowly the false truths fueled by addiction hidden deep in my brain are being replaced with positive and constructive things. I know nicotine cannot bring me inner peace. I know that since I haven’t been chewing, my chest and back no longer have the sharp pains I used to get. My gums and face are no longer sore and I don’t have the fear of cancer in my mind. I still get angry feelings, but these are slowly being replaced by better, more positive feelings. I want to know the psychology behind this type of thinking that I have, but I really don’t need to know because I trust in my instincts. Thank you, everyone on this site for your help and guidance. And thank you very much for having this site up. I could not have come this far without the support tools that are here for me. I reached 100 days, twenty some odd days ago, but I am such a perfectionist, I have been thinking and writing things down about this speech to have it exactly right. I know there isn’t much detail or length in this speech, but this is all I have to say for now.
Thank you, Brett