I sit here at the 100 day mark, having freed myself from the wrath of the “nic bitch.” I can honestly say that I never thought quitting was possible. The simple thought of living without dip was beyond scary. I sit here, today, thinking of how foolish I once was.
I could try and tell you that it was pure will power and dedication that helped get me to this point, but we all know that’s not true. It was the fear of being called out by Big Whit and Moddyd! This site is invaluable. All of you are inavaluable. This site is not for everyone, but it certainly has been for me. It has allowed me to get my life back. Let me explain……
When I first decided to quit, I was an unhealthy person, physically and mentally. I decided to make some changes, so that I could be here for my daughter. My blood pressure was high, my cholesterol was high, I hadn’t been to the doctor in a while…..you get the picture. Mentally, I was dealing with some terrible anxiety, crippling anxiety. I honestly thought that my time on this earth was coming to an end. I decided to make some changes….BIG changes! In addition to staying quit, I started exercising and eating right. The exercise definitely helped with the physical withdrawals. I also decided to seek help for my anxiety. Bobchap, whether you realize it or not, you were instrumental in my seeking help. I also decided to visit the doctor, and the dentist, all within these first 100 days.
Where am I now? I have been nicotine free for 100 days. I have lost 45 pounds. My cholesterol, blood pressure, and every other test are all normal. I no longer sweat the small stuff and find something to be grateful for, every damn day. My dentist couldn’t tell that I used to dip, and that was refreshing. I am a much better person than I was at day 1. I think I am a better Dad and a better husband. I feel really damn good. Am I bragging? Yep, I am. I think I’ve earned that! I remain humble, though, and recognize that every single one of you helped me along the way. I believe in second chances and am fortunate to have been given one.
Proud to be quit with all of you!