When I was 15 years old I was pressured into taking my first chew by my best friend. I was sicker off of that one chew then I thought that I could ever be. My dad also chewed and to me he was the coolest person around. I wouldn’t admit to him that I felt that way but no teenager would.
From that first chew to right now a lot of stuff has changed in my life. I have grown up and moved over 1500 miles from friends and family trying to find a good job. I have lost family members and friends over the years. I have even lost my step dad along the way. The only thing that never did change was that I always had a dip in my mouth. It seemed like it was always there for me, until 100 days ago.
I have found a way to replace the dip with a something new to me, something that isn’t going to give me cancer, and people that actually seem to give a damn about me. I have found a great website ktc with people that I gave a big FU before I got of the patch and got my quit on.
It seemed in the beginning that there was a lot of people that wouldn’t really support me because of the patch. After I sat back and seen that they actually where supporting me with tough love I did say sorry to them. There was also great people that supported me in a kind manner even when I was on the patch. If it wasn’t for them I would have thought that this site was full of nothing but assholes and would probably have left it.
I didn’t really want to write this when I hit the hof because I didn’t think that it was that big of a deal. I felt that a year would mean more, but it is a big deal because there are a lot of people that I want to say thanks to. People deserve to hear thanks because they have worked hard to keep me quit. I started out Quitting for myself and would up Quitting with everyone.
I want to say thanks to my shitbag group for always being there. In our group Sig and bengal have always voiced up and helped me day by day and I appriciate it guys. Also there is Fenris that has quit one day at a time with me.
Then there is big brother Jack who has taken me under his wing and has been a great mentor. Carrying his brothers day over in my early quit really helped me come back to the site. I have a lot of respect for you Jack keep up the great work on helping people stay quit.
From there I go to April and May of 08 where I had Mule, Buck, and Redtrain to support me. Mule and Redtrain kept me coming back when I was on the patch. They never had anything discouraging to say to me. Buck helped me when I had the blahs.
From there I would like to thank everyone else that has helped if I didn’t mention your name sorry, but you know who you are and you know that I am truly thankful for your support.
Next stop will be day 1000 lets keep this quit going.