I don’t really know what to say at day 100 other than thank you to the KTC community for all the support and information to stay quit. Real people with real advice from dealing with the nicotine demon.
I started dipping in college and tried to hide it from everyone for over 35 years. I couldn’t hide it from my wife and many times let her down on the promise to quit. I never thought to ask for her help or anyone else’s help. I never wanted to admit I am addicted to nicotine until now. It took me that long, I hope others can realize sooner than I. I also have to admit that this is going to be a continuous journey and will take constant vigilance to stay quit. I owe that to my wife and three daughters along with this community. I want to see my grand children some day. 100 days ago I admitted to my wife that I could not do this without her help. She led me to KTC and continues to support me and The KTC community is helping me keep that promise. At the end of the day, I have to choose every day to stay quit.
I can now acknowledge how hard this is to do. I urged my mother to quit smoking many years ago all the while being a hypocrite dipping and thinking that was different. She did ultimately quit but several years later died of lung cancer. I wish I had acknowledged better how proud of her I was and how hard it was for her to stay quit. I too thought I had cancer but thankfully have been cleared. That scare was part of the catalyst for quitting.
I can’t change the past but I can do all I can in the future to keep going. Not only for myself but for my wife, family, friends, and others like you who are showing the way.