Hmmmm, 143 days quit, big gosh darn deal huh?
Been there, done that. 3 times now. Once for 9 months (quit posting), once for 3 months on my own, now my third trip down quit lane. This is going to take some doing I guess.
I won’t bore you with the details of my 29 year addiction. I started in high school and never stopped. I quit for the 3rd time in the last 29 years before Xmas 2013. December 9th 2013, after a particularly nasty hangover.
I think now about what’s going to be different, how will I finally be quit “forever”?
Of course, forever can’t exist in my addict mind, only today matters.
Over the last 29 years, here is what I don’t miss.
- Thinking that I am killing myself at the expense of my wife and kids
- Knowing I am throwing away money on a habit that is killing me
- Watching my weight, drinking and dipping get worse.
- Wondering if that white spot on my cheek could finally be the cancer I’ve been waiting for
- Lying to my 12 year old son who spied a can of dip in my pocket and asked why I had it, of course I lied and said I was holding it for a friend. He then said, “Dad, I know what that is, and I know you’re lying”
- Rescheduling dental appointments because I was afraid of what he would say
- Being a slave to the can and feeling like I had no self-control
- Acid reflux
- The guilt of knowing that I was slowly killing myself at the expense of my family
Shared experience, shared pain and accountability made all the difference. That is why KTC worked for me and continues to work. Everyone has helped me along the way. Being involved, checking out the chat rooms, texting my quit brothers has made the difference.
MARCH 14 IRONMEN are my brothers, and they saved my life.
If I can do this, so can you. Anything is possible with the power of the brotherhood. Thanks for your support and for giving me back my self-respect.