Note to Self

17 days. This is my note to self.

In case you’re thinking about walking away from this site. Maybe your quit for 1, 2, 3, 4 hundred days, maybe even 1000. Good for you, congrats, now don’t fuck it up. There are stories upon stories of guys who thought they could walk away and make it on their own. Then they show up posting a day 1. You will not break your word. Make sure you post early, EVERY DAY, and you will not fail this quit.

You daughter hasn’t been born yet. Make sure her dad never dips. Ever. Not one moment she draws a breath should you be trying to kill yourself. Cause you may succeed. Then what? Who’s going to watch over her? Huh? NO ONE HOLDS THAT RESPONSIBILITY BUT YOU. Got that?

What about Jack? As I write this, he think you are the balls. He would spend every waking moment with you if he could. He tries to wear your clothes, say the things you say, he even walks behind you as you cut the grass with his plastic lawnmower. You think he won’t dip if you do? Huh? Lead by example. Be everything you want him to be. Don’t be a pussy and say, “Don’t make the same mistakes as me. This shit is bad for you.” Man up. Strive to be as awesome as he thinks you are. You’re not going to be perfect, fucknut, but your best is pretty damn good. And at the very least he will learn that a man never excels, or wins, if he backs down or fails to give his best effort.

So, if you think you’ve got this beat, that’s just fucking pisser. Don’t walk away from this site that gave you the kick in the ass you needed. Be that veteran who made the difference for you in your first day, week, month of your quit. Be that guy who says the things I haven’t even heard yet, or gives the lessons I haven’t learned, that makes the difference is someone else’s life. Congrats on saving your own life. Now help someone else, because you couldn’t have done it alone.

Regards,

You

NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan.org forum member Skoal Monster