My +1

KTC Logo PurpleA lawyer a truck driver, a farmer, an IT guy, a whatever anyone does here walks into a bar, and save each other’s lives.

So 250 days after I joined, 150 days after my HoF induction, 50 days after I hit the 2nd floor, and it’s still just another +1.

I’m still quit. I quit 250 days ago for 1 day, that’s what these absolute strangers on this site I had never heard of told me to do. They say it works. Quit for today, worry about tomorrow, well, tomorrow.

Holy shit it works. 9/23/2016 I quit. Since then I’ve done it 249 more times, and I’m going to continue to do it every day until, well, until forever. But for now, I’m quitting today.

This has been an amazing journey, a battle. I’ve seen and had a lot of fun, a lot of laughs, a whole lot of bullshit, and more drama than every high school in America could handle. I’ve met new people, some in person, some not. I care for you, you complete strangers. You have become family. I can honestly say that in my life, I’ve never had friends as good, as genuine, and as caring as some I’ve met here.

Lentz, HG, Jupiter, Pro, Adarm, JeffW…You guys have saved my quit more than you’ll ever know. Through anything I’ve gone through. Can, Ari, and anyone else I’m starting to find, I’m glad for you too. You have all been absolute Godsends for me, even down to the guys that text me nothing more than a number every day. It’s a promise that I know won’t be broken.

A week or so ago, my grandfather forgot who I was. He’s got Alzheimer’s, we knew it was coming, but that doesn’t really help. I was an absolute wreck. That night, 2 other quitters sent me pictures of themselves sharing a drink with me. I don’t​ know what the record is for longest toast, but there was over 2300 miles between the 3 glasses of bourbon, but we were together, then a couple days ago, did it again. You 2 mean more to me than I can express. 3 people who have never met in person, sharing a 2300 mile drink. We may as well have been in the same room. Unfortunately, there is no way to explain to someone how that bond can form. You can only experience it.

I don’t care if I’ve never spoken to you, I don’t care if you love or hate me on this site. I am damn proud to be quit alongside each and every one of you. That goes for the ones that have ventured off on their own as well. If you’re quit, I’m happy. I’ll keep you accountable as long as you let me.

I’ve seen good, solid quitters cave, I’ve seen people I didn’t expect to last a week hit HoF. We can all do this, you just have to buy in.

Question: When do you leave KTC? When has it served it’s purpose?

There is no answer to this. I became addicted 19 years before I quit. 6935 days. I’ve been quit for 250, I’m not there. For me, I’ll probably be a lifer. I like it here. I want to be able to give back.

Accountability is an amazing thing, truly. 250 days ago, I couldn’t have given less of a shit about any of you. Today, I care. I love you all. Everyone of you has helped in some way. You’ve saved my life, along with many others. I love hearing your triumphs, struggles, funny stories, all of it.

For better or worse, we’re here together, like some weird fucked up marriage.

To the new quitters reading this.

My story is simple, I am a truck driver, and I hear constantly, “I can’t​ drive without it”

BULLSHIT

Mile after grueling mile, I overcame those cravings. It wasn’t easy, and it still isn’t. But there’s a huge difference.

Day 1: Oh my God I’m going to die or murder someone if I don’t get a fix.

Day 250: Boy this sucks, but it’ll pass soon.

Quit now, save your life. It gets better faster than you think.

NOTE: This piece written by KillTheCan.org forum member Gassy

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  1. That is how its done! I’m with you all the way badass!

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